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Ok, good news.. Today is NOT a bitchfest!! No seriously, I swear to god, were he/she/it to exist... So, I'll swear on a stack of Girl Scout Cookies.. yum..

I was able to witness a traditional Indian (Hindu, not the ones that live in teepees) celebration today. Apparently, it's their New Year (on a side note, when are the Chinese and Indians gonna get on the same page as the rest of us with this new year thing? i mean come on!), a celebration known as Diwali. It is essentially a celebration of the return of an ancient exiled king in Hindu culture that took out some bad ass Hindu demon way back in the day.. The celebration itself is characterized with lots of food (but absolutely no meat for like a week), a traditional dance and music.

Now, many of you may be asking youself, "what??"... Believe me, I understand. I'm fortunate enough (is fortunate the right word?) to work in a company that is predominately Hindu. What's cool about it is that I've always been into learning about other cultures, especially religions. As many of you know, I'm not a religious person, but I think those other cultures and celebrations are fascinating. Which brings me to the meat of this blog...

Why is it that most people can't see beyond their own two feet and recognize other cultures validity? People in this world are so fucking ignorant when it comes to anything outside of their sphere of influence (thank you Sociology 101!!)... It just boggles my mind.. If you're not into religion or culture, fine! I won't judge you. But at least pick up a fucking book occasionally, or learn an instrument, or watch a foreign movie, or SOMETHING! A steady diet of Will Ferell movies and trashy shows that do nothing but depict a fake "life" that in no way corresponds to reality (I'm thinking of the show "Greek" that Kate put on the other day hahaha) just perpetuates the ever-declining level of intelligence, understanding and empathy that is running rampant in today's society. I recommend doing something you wouldn't normally do... For instance, I'm apparently going to a drag queen parade on Friday... How or why I got roped into this I may never know (it's totally for a chick, but don't tell her that hahaha), but god damn it, I've never been to one, so what possible harm could it do? Perhaps I'll have a whole new outlook on the gay community. Or maybe I'll get goosed by a guy in assless leather chaps.. Either way, I think I'll have a story for you all on Monday.

Kudos to all of you that continue to make yourselves better people, that feel the need to keep improving yourselves. Keep on truckin'...

wow, keep on truckin'... really? that's the best closing line I could come up with? fuck

i don’t know where i’m going with this

ok i'm going to do my best to not turn this into another bitchfest, but hey, it's bound to happen at some point, so embrace it when it starts..

so life has got me really down lately (shit, that didn't take long!).. take my MBA program for instance.. at some point (and i can't remember when, it seems like so long ago) i was genuinely excited to go back to school, get my MBA, expand my mind a little, etc. I actually like school.. Learning is important, whether it's at school, at work, or just learning something from your buddies. It keeps the mind limber. It causes you to think about things a little more rather than being a fucking mindless robot like so much of the population is.

Unfortunately, this past semseter has really got me questioning the value of an MBA. Sure, I'll have a pretty little certificate with my name in some fancy fuck lettering with a cutesy little NIU seal of approval on it. What exactly does that mean? Did I learn anything? Am I better suited to serve the world? Or am I just yet another carbon copy of all of my predecessors? I'm beginning to think it's the latter.

And work has been a fucking drag lately. I'm the youngest person at this company, yet somehow I'm light years beyond all of my worthless coworkers with my boss being the one exception. I actually had to sit in a meeting today and listen to an engineer bitch and moan that he gets too many emails every day and there's just too much work for him... he doesn't know how to prioritize it... Are you kidding me? Your 50 fucking years old!! This isn't 1st grade where the teacher has to tell you to get your homework done. Be a responsible adult and get your shit together! At one point, I looked him square in the eye and said, "I've heard enough," got up and left...

I'm starting to think I'm going to be a surly old man when I get older. I hate that idea. I really try to give people the benefit of the doubt and help wherever I can. But I'm starting to realize that 99% of the people out there are either A) incapable of being helped, or B) not fucking worth it. How depressing is that. The longer I'm exposed to the world, the more I just want to move to Mexico, live on the beach, and say fuck it all.

On a much brighter note, I've been writing music lately, and I'm fucking stoked about it! Eric's been a pal helping me put this shit together (I'm such an amateur), and now I've got 2 songs in the works, with a 3rd on the way. Small steps, I know, but it's one of the few things I'm actually happy about right now. Once I can get in the studio (ie josh's hahaha) and get these recorded, I'll start a band page and post them up for all of you to listen to and critique. Trust me, I can take whatever you have to say about it, so be honest. More to come...

hmm, what else... I feel like I shouldn't even post this cuz it's rambling crap... though I knew that at the beginning (see the title)... oh well.. I need to get some of this shit off my chest and bounce it off someone, otherwise I'm just gonna go insane, start drinking all day every day, and say fuck the world.. and i don't want to do that..

oh well, I'm gonna wrap this up.. it's 4pm and i'm still at work typing this... why am i not at home?? *sigh* ok i'm outta here.. have a good weekend to all the people i don't talk to regularly.. to all the rest, i'll see ya soon!